And now, the end is near…..
And so I face the final curtain
So I’m writing this with three shots left to do of my second 365, and I can’t help but feel sad. I’ve been doing a shot everyday for the last 700+ days and it’s become very much a part of me and who I am, it’s going to be very difficult to break the habit of what feels like a lifetime. I’ve learned so much and come such a VERY long way in this journey, mind you, I’ve also spent quite a large amount of money to arrive at this point. The shot that started it all is below, I’m not even sure why I started doing a 365 way back then, I do remember thinking that I would probably never finish it though!
Regrets I’ve had a few
There have certainly times in the past two years where I have honestly felt like giving up, that the pressure of an image a day was just to much. The pressure to take better or more interesting or more creative shots only got greater as I felt my own ability was improving. This critical view was entirely coming from within me, I don’t like to lose and I don’t like to give up on anything ever. But I often felt that what I was producing just wasn’t good enough, I’ve since read that most creative people feel like this – being your own worst critic is probably a very desirable trait although it often doesn’t feel like it when you are beating yourself up. I’m quite proud of the fact that very, very, very few times did I think “F*#k it, that will do”, and most of those occasions were during a time when I was having a lot of issues with my dodgy back and was mostly off my face on prescription drugs!
But then again too few to mention
I still look back on the voyage I have taken with great fondness, although there were bad points, these were easily outnumbered by the good. I’ve been to places and seen sights and done things that I am really unlikely to have seen or done without photography. It’s also totally changed the way I look at the world, I see the beauty in sunsets, the colours in the natural world and snatched glimpses of private moments now all take on a meaning and I can see the joy in it all. Capturing these moments is what I love, holding a point in time forever special and locked onto something that can be printed and held in the hand – that is why I take pictures. I recently did a shoot with some musicians at a gig, most of them used my shots as their Facebook profile picture. This may seem a small thing, but to me it felt more important that any image sale or winning a competition, because I’d plucked a moment from these individuals lives that they had felt captured the essence of who they were.
It’s difficult to pick a single image from all the ones that I have taken that I would pick as my favourite, but ultimately(and rather egotistically I guess) I think it has to be the one below
The record shows I took the blows, and did it my way
As I said at the top of this post, I’m very proud of what I have achieved. If you had said to me at the start that I would be regularly selling images via Getty, or that I would have images picked by such great institutions as National Geographic or the National Trust I’d have laughed in your face. But that is where I stand today, making money(albeit a small amount of money) from something I still consider to be a hobby, something I do for fun and to relax. Photography is still, and hopefully always be, not something I consider to be a job. I’ve made myself two promises over the last year; 1) If I ever feel like I have nothing left to learn or 2) The money making side starts to outweigh the fun, then that is when I will stop, I will put down the camera and find something else to do for a while, until I rekindle the JOY of photography.
So the song ends, but what’s the next track on the album?
Honestly I don’t have an answer at the moment, certainly a couple of days off from taking pictures is on the cards. I’ll probably still do things like Fence Friday and Our Daily Challenge, but I also want something else that pushes me to think differently and creatively. I’m thinking about a 50 days of 50mm, where I only take shots with a 50mm lens. I’ll continue with the self portrait “Me again Monday” group as well, because I do really enjoy making a total tit of myself for the world to see! Growing Shutterview is also something I have rumbling around in my head, doing some more photoshoots from friends, family and some organisations I know, if I make a little bit of cash from it, that’s cool.
The award goes to……
I’d like to thank everyone who has viewed, commented or favourite’d my pictures on Flickr or who has read one of my rambling blog posts. Thanks to J for some of the ideas in my shots and the words of encouragement and support that she has given me. Thanks also to my children for putting up with daddy and his annoying hobby, god knows you’ve been asked to do some crazy stuff in the name of art! Thanks obviously also goes to Kyla for keeping me going through the bad times of this project – I honestly don’t think I’d be where I am today without her.
So as 2011 breathes it’s last few breaths, I wish all of you a happy and prosperous 2012, may your images always be composed correctly, your focus spot on, the light always golden and the DoF perfect!












